I was walking in the arena in my walking meditation, Roman (my horse) came in from the pasture and began to walk behind me, Belle (dog) was walking behind Roman and Pretzel and Buzzy (cats) were following on the top rail. I smiled at the sight of us and thought how blessed I am. I am so happy that Roman has joined me now several times when I go out for my meditations and walking.
After my 30 minute walk I sat on the hay tub to go deeper into my meditation. I breathed into my hara. Belle was beside me, Pretzel and Buzzy on the fence rail next to me and Roman stood facing me about 5 feet away. He had already begun his meditation. I watched him for a minute as I breathed and I wondered if I would ever get as grounded as this horse is. He is so powerful and goes so deep into his own meditation, I feel it is because he is a Mustang born in the wild, he had to go deep quickly and in short snippets of time, I’ve never seen a domestic horse that goes this deep, maybe it is because he has my heart and has been a profound teacher for me.
I settle into my breathing and close my eyes, it is incredibly peaceful. My heart expands in such a depth I feel it will burst. I feel my feet firmly planted into the ground up to my knees, solid, like a sense of grounding I never felt in my previous Reiki studies, I’m so grateful for this practice, this way of Reiki. I’m so grateful I trusted myself to continue to seek answers and didn’t give up on Reiki. I feel like I am home in my heart, in my soul, in my bones at the very essence of me. A feeling I am fairly sure I do not know on a conscious level, yet I know it, it is familiar, like home is the only way I can put it into words.
I hear many birds flying over and near, other than the slight breeze and birds it is complete silence, I feel very connected as if I am part of the earth and the breeze, it all feels vibrating to me.
I’m not sure what brought me back from the deep silence and vibrating sensation, but I slowly opened my eyes to see about 10 bluebirds sitting on the fence rail, Buzzy and Pretzel are not even paying attention to them. I breathe deep and allow all of the lovely feelings to absorb in. No one is moving much, I’m not sure how long we have been here, but feels like a long time. Roman gives a big snort and licks and chews, I stand and he walks over to me and puts his head on my chest, snorts again licks and chews and turns to walk into the pasture. My heart is full, the connectedness is so incredibly deepand tears stream. I notice Frosty and Tess (mares) came in from the pasture and are sleeping against the arena fence.
I don’t want it to end, but I know I can go there again and again, I know if I can experience this depth of connection and fullness in this short of time, it just makes me want to go deeper into my practices, studies, meditations and hold them with reverence and honor them, my mind wants to hurry and rush to learn more but I rein myself in with a deep knowing there is no rush to get there, where, whatever the minds thinks to achieve, there is just now and I can come back to this feeling of peace and connectedness anytime, I want to savor it. This groundedness is helping me in all aspects of my daily life and a couple of mindful breaths can get me here, grounded and a solid foundation, which I did not have before, amazing.